Your Time Is Now

i am counting down to your embrace
the feeling leaving from my face
i do not hear i do not see
but that is no tragedy

i long for what i can not have
the prize that's just out of my grasp
a yearning for the one that's dear
that bullet placed behind my ear

a sanctified bitch's scorn
and the devil's bright red horn
i'm falling far from your grace
into her love embrace

the calender falls of the wall
as they say, time heals all
but wounds that can not bleed
will always be to plant the seed

the seed of doubt sown on the ground
leads to folly, the fool's around
lead him, drag him, he will stray
no one will be there for your day

A Soliloquy To Last The Ages

A soliloquy to last the ages, a dialogue to express my fears
A dream to last a fortnight, an dialogue to express my years

Camphor and chamomile, a shaman's delight
Rid me of the dreams, save me from the fight

Squelch the rumors, the hate, the lies
Kill the rats, the traitors, the spies

An epiphany to last the ages, a speech to express my tears
A vivid lucidity to last forever, a love to express the new years

Happiness Is Knocking On My Door

My dreams are becoming realities, my fears are finally realized.
Even now, while in limbo, I yearn for you, standing at the window.
Cradle the baby, I'll be by your side, no more running, no reason to hide.
I flee the home where all I know is pain and sorrow, defeat and woe.
To go to a place far down below.

You're waiting for me, I will run into your arms
Southern belle with your witty charms.
I crave thee now, forever I might,
Too soon to know what end is in sight.
But yet I chase, more intense than you know,
Oxytocin explosion this much I will show.

No one to follow, a true partnership found,
The sweet embrace wrapped all around.
I sink into nirvana, sweet serene bliss,
As I wait for your voice, your touch, your kiss.

Old Lady

The old lady tossed me out on my ass
No more living large or spending cash
On the down and out and on the mend
I've only got one more message to send

Gotta tell you how I feel
Tell you the things I know are real
You kill me with a look
And you know how to kill
No shame, just the thrill

Bitch

There's a woman
The fucking bitch ruins me with a look
All she needs to do
Is to put the lead in my head
I'm waiting for her to kill me
To put me out of my misery

One day I will be eased
The great divide will be ceased
She will rip off my face
And dissect the mind she can't understand

Race Is Equal

Niggers hiding in the shadows
With their blank white smiles
Selling their fun in little plastic packages

Spics riding in their cars
With their bandanas by color
Shooting the man across the fucking street

Honkeys sitting on their porch
With their tiny pricks
Fucking their cousins and destroying humanity

Living For Today

Skip to my lou
Do what I do
Left in the loo
Morning dew
Forgotten again
My last friend
Bring it back
I am sad

Thin the lines of the herds of the people
As they gather for mass production
Living their lives in constant abduction
Shoot them where they stand

Fumble the ball
Hear the call
Drip drip drip
Off your fingertip
Bring it
Just bring it
Back home
All alone

Kill the masses with their false predictions
Another false prophet to bear false witness
Killing kindness with bare agression
Living for today

Slip Into The Membrane

The virgin fuck needs to be perverted
The pious prayer needs to be reverted
The angsty teen is probably retarded
When will the hare win?

Jesus spoke to the Pharisees
Moses spoke to the Jews
Gollum spoke to the Baggins'
Like I will speak to you

Fuck the hole that's in your heart
With the solid prick of midnight dark
Listen to the shouting farce
And drop the acid 'til it sparks

The French will win another day
When we will all beg to say
One more word, we pray and pray
It's all in vain, in your vein

Fuck the virgin mother birth
And lock away your afterbirth
For years and years the cells stay ripe
Show the offspring on your Skype

Kill the demon, but slay the god
Slice the punk and stab the mod
Tear the blotter and break the tube
We'll shoot up just me and you

Once upon a time they were good
When no one went without food
I tell them again and again
I tell my enemy,
I tell my friend

Sing Me A Song

Sing me a song, girl
Write me a note
I'm gonna be the one you wrote
Let me be with you
Lay with me
I'm gonna make you happy

We'll live forever under the sun
Over the ground and in the woods
No one will find us, we'll run away
To a place we want to stay

So sing me a song, girl
Write me a note
Let's find out if this log floats
Jump in my arms
I'll always love you
We'll be married sometime soon

We'll never die as long as we
Have some lovely memories
No one will find us, we'll run away
And I'll never leave you astray

Lilith

There will be a girl, they say
One that takes your breath away
She'll fix all that is wrong
And inspire you to write a song

Everything will be perfect
No one could warn you
Of the impending doom
What she'll put you through...

Will be more terrible than anything you've ever faced in your life
Anyone could tell you your back would be stabbed with a knife
But you won't listen because she is deep inside your mind
There's nothing they can do... nothing they can say... to change your...

One day I'll be hanging from a rafter
Then they'll know that I was alone too long
The booze and the pills, they took your place
But they could never ever inspire song

Not like a woman does
The sweet smell of estrogen can make a man do crazy things
But I... I will never feel that...
I... I will never have that love again.

There will be nobody to fuck me over
There will be nobody to make love
There will be nobody to steer me wrong
There will be nobody... I'll be alone.

Leave A Message

Should I give it another try?
Should I fall in love or die?
Should I shoot for the stars?
Should I break through the bars?

I have so many questions
I need answers to
I have so many questions
I need answers too

Will I go to another place?
Will I live after my life?
Will I cast the first stone?
Will I break another bone?

I have the questions
That have no answers
Just call me crazy
And leave a message at the beep

Psycho

The blank white walls
The blank white walls
The padded walls
The padded walls
Come save me, Lord
Come save my, Lord
Don't break my heart
Another time

The book writes itself
The motives inate
The need to create
The failure to anticipate

The bars on the door
The bars on the door
The holes in the wall
The holes in the wall
Come save me, Lord
Come save me, Lord
Just set me free
Another time

Just writing some stuff...

I've laid here and dreamt of you
For far too long
I've given up too much
And come too far
One day I'll have the courage
But not today
No not today

Today is just another day
Hiding my feelings and waiting it out
Today is just another day
Getting ready to shout it out
I love you, I love you, I love you
Not today
But maybe tomorrow

Grant Me One Wish, God

Morphine soaks the bedsheets
The bottle is broken
And the syringe is laying on the floor

I need a way to escape the escape
I need a way to relive the dead
I need a way to comprehend the imaginary
Help me do the impossible

Grant me one wish, God
Grant me the serenity to change what I can't
Grant me the freedom to choose my own will
Grant me a cure from the opiate haven
I have torn it out of my own being

I have ills, I have ailments
I need your help, Oh God
Thou shalt save me from my one true nemesis
Myself...

No help is coming?

No God?

No God?

Why have you forsaken me?

Drown it out

I sit here and drown it out
Drown the voices, drown them out
They need to leave, I need them gone
Just put my favorite music on

Sip this bottle, it will ease the pain
The greatest lie ever told
It increases, the pain, tenfold
I can't stop it, I won't stop it