Mistakes

The scars I hide
Ashamed to the core
The wounds I tried
To heal but they sore
The drugs I find
To keep the pain away
I just wish I had a minute
I just wish I had a day

Life How It Should Be

I stand in front of the audience
People watching as I stand here facing
Hundreds of faces staring back
Feedback pouring through my amp

My foot starts tapping as he starts singing
My hand starts strumming as I start feeling
Feelings that everyone is watching
Everyone is judging me waiting for me to fail

I can see myself now falling
Crumbling down up there on the stage
Everyone watching me fail
As I fall and fill with rage.

Fate

You brought us together
And tore us apart
You're here forever
After we depart
No one knows why
We live or die
Yet you keep it even
Through every season
You are the one
Who pokes fun
At all mankind
With chaos in mind
You are FATE

Competition

I can't stand these feelings
Of always competing
Always pushing for first place
And ending up last.

I don't know why its so hard
To can't drop this and go on
Just live our lives out
And never love again.

But we'll always be here
Shooting for first place
Holding each other back
From full glory.

Today

My writing might be shit
But at least it's from the heart
Writing down the truth
Til the end and from the start.
I can't write when I'm away from the one
But now that we're talking
No longer do I have to run

Goodbye Forever, I Won't Look Back

Autumn comes in slow and strong
The summer forgotten and long gone
I thought I loved you
But my thoughts often deceive
And now I know
You aren't the person I thought I could see
With your lies and your cheating
Your offspring never born
Playing on whichever side is winning
No matter how much you may be sinning
You do for yourself
and never for another
You failed at being a wife
I hope you can be a mother
You will find love
As I will with another
How many times did you make me lose hope?
How many times did I fall back on dope?
You made me want to die time and again
But you're the one who killed
Performed the mortal sin.

Sick II

The cells of health betray me
As I hover over porcelain
When a body has taken the toll
Of drugs and booze and sin
Only a matter of time until
I meet the antagonist of our Lord
In his fiery vengeance he will
Punish me for eternity
But any feeling is better than this one
The one of a body's betrayal

Last Post

This is my last post
This is my last wish
I wish for happiness
For you and for her
No matter what I do
I won't be good enough for you
So I have to leave
And never look back
And you may never read this
But I know that it is written
That I love you and our daughter
My two angels from heaven.
But I can't be as good as him
No matter how hard I try
I can't make you that happy
Or pay for all the nice things
So I guess this is it,
I'm leaving today
On this 24th of September
The last thing you hear me say...

I love you
I love you
I love you

Waiting...

Living in lies
only eats me inside
I wish for death
With every breath
But death wont visit
With its icy cold touch
I'll keep waiting
For death, my last crutch

Update

I haven't updated this blog in ages, but now that I don't have a lot going on I think I am going to get back into poetry and songwriting. No longer do I have drugs to stimulate my muse, but I will always have love. Love for a person, love for humanity, love for excess, or love for insanity. I will always have love, and my new outlook on life will be reflected in my new poetry.

-Collin Jones

Best Night Ever

One day I walked myself back home
Never again would I walk alone
The very next day a girl I re-met
And in the dark parking lot we set.

We broke down doors and danced a bit
We ran and jumped, but didn't smoke no shit
She was, by far the most beautiful there
From her toes all the way to her wavy brown hair.

I'll never forget the night we hugged first
I think my pants were about to burst.

Who Am I?

I write and write
some brooding
some trite
I spin a yarn
I tell a tale
People live
And people die
With the stroke
of my pen.
One is born
and matures
with simple strokes
And sometimes
it's not enough
To write a little
I have to write some more
Like the scarlet whores
Covered in sores
This is who I am.

Please

Footsteps
On a cold wood floor
Raindrops
Over a foggy moor
Stormclouds
Sorround us completely

As we reach out
For help
And no one comes
To our aid.

Help us
Please.

Satan

Satan giggles
every time we lie
Satan giggles
every time we cry

Satan laughs
every time we try
Satan laughs
every time we die

Holly II

As walls come tumbling down
and the new king loses his crown
We all spin round and round
because that is all we know

Time goes, oh so slow
and where it goes, no one knows
I go where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all i know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see

We will see what happens next
What was simple, now is complex
I fight injustice like Malcolm X
but it all goes down the drain

And problems fall down like rain
in this whirling, twirling hurricane
I go where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all I know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you, and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see

Who knows better than you
which foot fits the shoe
I just cant live without you
but you don't care anymore

And as I walk on through the door
I forgot everything that I swore
I went where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all I know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see