Last Post

This is my last post
This is my last wish
I wish for happiness
For you and for her
No matter what I do
I won't be good enough for you
So I have to leave
And never look back
And you may never read this
But I know that it is written
That I love you and our daughter
My two angels from heaven.
But I can't be as good as him
No matter how hard I try
I can't make you that happy
Or pay for all the nice things
So I guess this is it,
I'm leaving today
On this 24th of September
The last thing you hear me say...

I love you
I love you
I love you

Waiting...

Living in lies
only eats me inside
I wish for death
With every breath
But death wont visit
With its icy cold touch
I'll keep waiting
For death, my last crutch

Update

I haven't updated this blog in ages, but now that I don't have a lot going on I think I am going to get back into poetry and songwriting. No longer do I have drugs to stimulate my muse, but I will always have love. Love for a person, love for humanity, love for excess, or love for insanity. I will always have love, and my new outlook on life will be reflected in my new poetry.

-Collin Jones

Best Night Ever

One day I walked myself back home
Never again would I walk alone
The very next day a girl I re-met
And in the dark parking lot we set.

We broke down doors and danced a bit
We ran and jumped, but didn't smoke no shit
She was, by far the most beautiful there
From her toes all the way to her wavy brown hair.

I'll never forget the night we hugged first
I think my pants were about to burst.

Who Am I?

I write and write
some brooding
some trite
I spin a yarn
I tell a tale
People live
And people die
With the stroke
of my pen.
One is born
and matures
with simple strokes
And sometimes
it's not enough
To write a little
I have to write some more
Like the scarlet whores
Covered in sores
This is who I am.

Please

Footsteps
On a cold wood floor
Raindrops
Over a foggy moor
Stormclouds
Sorround us completely

As we reach out
For help
And no one comes
To our aid.

Help us
Please.

Satan

Satan giggles
every time we lie
Satan giggles
every time we cry

Satan laughs
every time we try
Satan laughs
every time we die

Holly II

As walls come tumbling down
and the new king loses his crown
We all spin round and round
because that is all we know

Time goes, oh so slow
and where it goes, no one knows
I go where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all i know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see

We will see what happens next
What was simple, now is complex
I fight injustice like Malcolm X
but it all goes down the drain

And problems fall down like rain
in this whirling, twirling hurricane
I go where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all I know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you, and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see

Who knows better than you
which foot fits the shoe
I just cant live without you
but you don't care anymore

And as I walk on through the door
I forgot everything that I swore
I went where nobody goes
but nothing makes it better

This is all I know
you turned a friend into a foe
I love you and you loved me
and soon, soon we will see

Holly

No one has made me feel this way,
this pain I feel will never fade.
I love you more each and every day
but this is the price that has been paid.

You made my world go from black and white;
gave me color, and gave me sight,
to see old things in new light;
And I dream of you every night.

You don't know how much it hurts.
I don't think this could get much worse;
I'm at the end, and you need to know,
Holly, you are my world, I love you so.

You will always be in my heart,
You always have been since the start.
And even though I may part,
you will always have my heart.

None will come and take me away.
None will mean the things you say.
None can replace you my love,
you're my angel, sent from above.

You

You will never be alone
Because I am here
I'm always by your side
I am always near

You have nothing to fear
So grin from ear to ear
Nothing can ever harm you
I won't let anything near

You're closer to my heart
Than my closest friends
I knew from the start
We'd be in it 'til the end

So lay your head down
Sleep tight sweet angel

Where Did My Thoughts Go?

Where do my thoughts go?
They're not in my head...
And as they slip away
I feel it's safe to say
They won't bother me when I'm dead

But if I have any doubts,
then please remind me why
because my head's in the clouds
and my mouth is very dry.

I can't keep my focus
I hardly know my name
And when you ask me a question,
you have to say it again

Because I can't remember who
and I fail to know when
And there's nothing I can do
To have these back again

So tell me if I forget
And let me know where I am
And if I need to stop and sit
Please just hold my hand

This will all be over in a while
Just let me tread on alone
I'll recover all I've lost
And I'll always know my way home

maybe, just maybe

I have fallen
Come close to the end,
but something kept me going,
Love from a long lost friend.
I searched for years
looking for eternal bliss,
the most evasive emotion.
But somehow here
In this place for which
There is no love in my heart
The one land
To which I vowed never to return
I found you there,
And you brought color
To my black and white world.
So I came back
To the town where I was raised
Where I spent,
So many lonely days...
...but love starts at birth
And doesn't end
'til the end of days
So maybe theres something
something to look forward to
and maybe,just maybe
I have found...

Spank

Follow the leader
don't make a decision.
God forbid you think
and are the victim of derision.

It's The End

Smoke rings create
effervescent backdrops
for countries among
warring nations.
Omnipotence is overrated
bleeding forth
through eyes dry
and although they cry
what more can be said?
Babies weep
and mothers cheap
sold for cash.
But I'm not a pessimist
I'm just honest
and everything they said
can be thrown away
like the trash from yesterday.
In the trash
with the rusty needles
and the condom wrappers
from some guy
who's long forgotten.
Look at this mess we're in
and tell me this
is not the end.

Seagull's Fly And Fly

Waves crash on the shore
Afflictions easing more and more
Seagulls fly and fly
Passing over through the sky

See the little boat
Out there steady, calmly afloat
Seagulls fly and fly
Passing over through the sky

Watch the people on the beach
Just a breadth from the angry tide's reach
Seagulls fly and fly
Passing over through the sky

I love sitting here
Sitting on this long wood pier
Seagulls fly and fly
Passing over through the sky