Hamster Wheel

Sobriety is an illumination
Illuminated by the essence
Of the effervescent demons
Brought on by the plague
Dragged to the bottom
Of the rocky ledge of pain
Rocky mountain sunshine
Bring on the moonshine
Drop it to the knees
Of our civil liberties
I can't explain myself
And I'm in poor health
I feel like death
When I take another breath
And I'll never feel your pain
But I have my own reign
To look over, glance over
Bring a part of me back
I can't stop the attack
Of the superficial
Omni - Potent
Reach-a-round
Bring it around
To escape
It's the easy fate
The prison release date
I can't help what I write
I mostly do it out of spite
I can't help what I feel
On this fucked up hamster wheel.

Dead To You

I spend more time crying
Than I spend awake
I cry in my sleep
Each night and day
I wish this pain would go away
But all I can do is just say

I wish you were here
And I'll always hold you dear
But you left me high and dry
And I always wondered why
I never had closure,
Never gave it a thought
Til I fell down and was broken
And I had nowhere to go
And now I just need you to tell me
I need to know

Why did you leave me all those years ago?
Why do you hate me after all this time?
What did I do to you to make you pissed?
To make you hate me. To be dismissed.

I wish I was someone else
A fucking Guido sitting in a club
I could grab your attention
Maybe even get a rub

But you don't even know what I look like anymore
But I remember how you smelled, all those years before
Before you were clubbing, and drinking all night
Back when we'd talk on the phone and never fight

I wish you could tell me just how you feel
But you're evasive about all that is real
I need you right now, and you blow me off
I hope I fucking die, but that might piss you off

Privacy

I am a private person
Generally
Hiding behind fancy phrases
Eventually
Leading me to a person whom
Thankfully
Might understand and lend a hand

I want my opinions heard
Vocalized
But I want my family life
Privatized
Maybe you can help me be freed
Chastised
Is always how I look out of these two eyes

Free me from my
Sanctuary
Chained to the cage of this
Tabernacle
Of sin and hate, you can't relate
Just let me go
And let go of your fate.

Dreams (It's a work in progress)

Dreams are crushed every day
You're not good enough
But you're great in every way

I don't have enough energy to say
What these fucks don't want you to hear
It's all about who they want to pay
And they just want you to disappear

We may not have college degrees
But that is just fine with me
We'll make it on our own
Somehow
We may not have the highest SAT's
But that is just fine with me
We'll figure it out on our own
Somehow

Dreams are crushed and they expect you to stay
In the same job, fucking day after day
Tell 'em off, tell 'em you don't want their greed

Because that's all the businesses want from you
They only want you to do what they tell you to
But I know we can be, better than that

We may not have college degrees
But that is just fine with me
We'll make it on our own
Somehow
We may not have the highest SAT's
But that is just fine with me
We'll figure it out on our own
Somehow